Afterr eading all my past entries I felt as if my heart was as fickle as someone desperate. I hate this. Maybe Jon was right all along. If only I could I would erase my entire past and live life as it is, with no memories. be it horrid or beautiful. Life is fulfilling. Why spoil it with a couple of sad memories?

Some tell me to wait. Some tell me to forget him. I dont want to know other's opinions, I just want to know God's. His choice for me. Thats all I'm lacking and needing now. Just a word, "wait" or "forget". The next time I hear either of these words, I will follow it, taking it as though its God's way of telling me. I'm really desperate for an answer.